I don't know what to do with myself. For the first time in a long time, I have nothing DE related to obsess about and it's driving me crazy!! The donor I was recently matched with is leaving for vacation on June 30 and won't be back in town until July 15, so the earliest anything will happen is a month away. I know I should make the most of this break from the land of IF but I've been living it so long that I don't know what to do. Since January, I have been consumed with picking a donor, waiting to get matched, getting frustrated at my clinic for not responding in a timely manner, finally getting matched and starting Lupron only to have my cycle canceled, then my donor was MIA and we couldn't find her, finally heard back from her, but by that point I was ready to move on, got matched with another donor, signed off on the paperwork and now I wait......
Now, I find myself constantly checking all of your blogs for updates, waiting for the latest LFCA posts and even checking my clinic's website daily - I don't know what I'm looking for. I just feel the need to look for something. I also check my clinic's list of donors several times a week to see if they've added anyone new - doesn't make sense. I'm thrilled with my donor. I just can't quit checking the list and the list of another clinic in town. I guess it's time to step away from the computer and try to enjoy my life as just another "normal" person for the next month, but it's so hard. I want to feel like I'm doing something. I guess the thing I need to be doing right now is learning to wait patiently.
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Ugh. I do feel your pain. Waiting sucks rocks.
Yes, the wait is impossible. Hope you find something fun to distract yourself with.
Riley, this is the HARDEST part. I went through MONTHS of insanity fueled by my impatient nature and Type A personality. If I'm not "doing" something, I feel like nothing is happening, so I really understand.
One group that's pretty good is PVED (if you're interested).
I'll be super excited to follow your DE journey along very very soon! :)
Ugh, waiting does stink. It really feels like you are doing nothing...when this is just the time that you desperately want to be doing something, anything. Hopefully, the internets will have some more distracting things for you to make the time go by faster!
Argh - even when I am doing something there is STILL waiting! But I feel your pain, you just want to get started! Hopefully you can do something in this month, but it will pass soon regardless!
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