I'm so frustrated right now, I could scream. Maybe it's because I've been sick with a nasty cold all week and have gotten very little sleep due to coughing all night, but I am so mad, frustrated, sad, angry etc. I left work early and just went home and soaked in the tub. I'm trying to avoid the world for now, because at this moment I feel like I hate everyone and everything! Which really isn't true - that's why I'm avoiding everyone, so I don't do or say anything I'll regret later. The cause - once again, my unresponsive clinic! I'm almost at the point where I just want to give up and say forget the whole thing - or else move to another clinic. How hard is it to return a phone call? I just don't get it. When I called on Tuesday, they told me the nurse would be back on Thursday, so I left ANOTHER message then and waited patiently today for her to call back, but of course she didn't. Surprise, surprise. So, I called again around 4 and left another message, thinking she'd still have an hour to return my call - what was I thinking? I just don't understand why she would call me on Feb. 19 to tell me they had a potential donor and then never call me back, return any of my phone calls since or provide me with any additional information. I feel like I'm part of some sick game they are playing on me.
I mean, we tried getting pregnant on our own for more than a year. Then tried IVF three times. Now, we are ready to move on to an option that has much better odds for us, yet, we can't get anyone to return our phone calls. Is someone trying to tell me something? Am I really not meant to be a mother?
I don't know if I should just quit worrying about the whole thing and just go on with my life and then maybe one day when I least expect it I'll finally get a call or should I call up the receptionist tomorrow morning and insist on speaking to someone - the nurse, the doctor or someone who can tell me what the heck is going on.
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This is about them, NOT you! You will be a mother one way or another. If this clinic won't respond, maybe it is time to look at another place? I was put one hold for a donor for 6 months - a YEAR from when we first came to the clinic (that was just getting into the program, no IVFs). Finally I got a workup at a clinic that would be far away but I could have scans and tests done locally, so it would only be travel for the retrival (for DH) and the transfer. Of course as soon as I paid $1500 to have their tests and workup, the local clinic called with a donor!
I ultimately decided to go with the local place, but I wonder if that was the right thing to do - we are still not pg. Maybe someone IS trying to tell you something, that this isn't the best place? Or maybe not - good luck with with whatever you decide, thinking of you.
You are meant to be a mother. This is not your fault or any reflection what so ever on you. Call Brenda at the front desk. Tell her you are upset because you've been in limbo for all this time and someone said she was the 'go to' person to get things done. Or ask to speak to Dr. T and tell him. I dropped a hint yesterday when I was there - please don't be mad at me - I was just trying to help. The nurse you're referring to is leaving at the end of April. Please hang in there - I know this is a terrible experience so far but I swear it is totally out of character for this clinic. They are just transitioning personnell. I know that doesn't make you feel any better but the docs here are so very competent. Call Brenda or Dr. T and be strong, not mean but not nice either. Tell them how many messages you have left. ((hugs)). Please let me know how it goes.
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