I just want to say thank you all so much for your support the past few days. I really don't know what I'd do without you all. Unfortunately, still no word about my donor's period. I called today to get an update and never got a call back which makes me think - no news is probably bad news. In the voice message to my nurse, I asked if there is a drop dead date - where if my donor doesn't get AF that the cycle will be canceled. The fact that she didn't call back tells me that my donor's period still hasn't started and she probably had to meet with the doctor to find out what the plan is.
I'm really starting to panic and freak out. I cannot handle this cycle being canceled. It's not like it's my first try at this and I'm being impatient. This will actually be my 6th freaking attempt. We tried three times with my eggs -one BFN, one canceled before retrieval and one that never made it to transfer because all my embryos quit dividing. So then we moved to donor egg. My first donor cycle got canceled due to high estradiol levels for the donor, got a new donor and then the second try was a BFN and now here we are at the third and final attempt with a brand new, proven, young donor who can not get her freaking period.
Three years of this. Please, let me get a call tomorrow with some good news. I can't handle putting this off for another month or two. I want a family!! Damnit!!!!!!!!!!
I had the day off of work today. I usually go to a 6 a.m. spin class at my gym with the other working people, but since I had the day off, I decided to sleep in and go to the 9:30 class. Big mistake! I swear it was mommy-central. The class was all moms and all they talked about were their kids - even the instructor. She couldn't remember the routines and kept blaming it on the fact that her kids kept interrupting her when she was trying to learn it. What a crappy way to start my day off. And it hasn't gotten much better - waiting all day for a phone call that never came. I'm seriously about to lose it.
Oh - irrationalexuberance - thank you so much for my award! I really appreciate it and plan to get to it when I'm in a better state of mind.
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I'm so sorry you are having such a rough time. Vent away, that's what we are here for.
If there was one thing I wish I RE offices would change, is to CALL PEOPLE BACK IN A TIMELY MANNER! Even if it's just to say that they don't know anything yet. This would make the process so much easier I think...and it's just good customer service!
I'm praying you get some good news tomorrow. Take care.
Your frustration is palpable. I am in just as impatient as you. I've had 7 IVF's, 4 IUI's, etc. I can't take much more of this shit either. This is our first Donor cycle and I'm so very impatient. Hang in there and know that we're all pulling for you!
Riley, I'm so sorry. You do NOT deserve this bullshit - particularly from your RE's office. I'm crazy angry with them for their unbelievable lack of responsiveness time and time again. I have NEVER experienced that with two separate clinics. I get aggitated when it's taken more than 2 hours for a return email - never mind the next day! Ugh! Hang in there - the universe owes you some damned wonderful news!
I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this! Ugh! Hoping that things get clarified, and dealt with so that you can GET ON WITH THIS!!!
Because I know how horrible the waiting is. Thinking of you.
Ha, I know all about the 9:30 spin class!! been there, won't do that again! It drives me crazy that mothers can be late and not get their work done ext. and get to blame it on the kids.....I even find sometimes at work ppl expect me to do MORE because "I don't have to chase my kids around" - Like i have no life? like I just sit around chillin out cause I have no kids. arg!
I am really sorry that you are going through this, that sounds like so many disappointments....I really hope there is good news tomorrow!
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