I swear - I can't take this anymore. FINALLY got a call back from the nurse. When my donor came in the other day her E2 level was too high to start stims - this is the exact same problem that I had with the very first donor I was ever matched with which resulted in the cycle being completely canceled. The nurse said the donor is supposed to come back in tomorrow so they can check her again. If her levels have come down, I guess MAYBE we'll be able to start - if not, I'm guessing everything will be canceled. This was supposed to be a super duper donor. Why does everything go to shit as soon as I get involved? I am really starting to believe that God or some other power is doing absolutely everything they can to prevent me from ever having a child. I don't know why, but huge roadblocks show up every time, without fail, no matter which path I choose.
This has to work. I don't know that I even want to cycle with this donor if her levels come down. I mean she didn't get her period - something is out of whack with her. I'm out of whack enough. This is our last chance. I don't want to use a donor who has even the slightest irregularity with her cycle. Why does this shit have to keep happening to me.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
7 comments:
wow, I'm so sorry this is all happening, I don't blame you for feeling like there is someone is against you in all this. I think we all feel that way sometimes, but this is a lot to take one. I know that one day this will all work out for you. I hope that day is tomorrow!
So sorry you're going through all of this. I understand your impatience to get this going, but maybe looking for another donor is a good option? Let's see what her next E2 levels are. Breathe in, breathe out.
ARGHHHHH!!!!! I am so sorry you're having to deal with this! ARGH!!!!!
UGH! I'm so upset for you! This bites, big time.
I know it feels like everything is working against you. (I've had many days in that place myself. many. and quite a few of them involved elevated E2s and cysts.) But try to look at it like the stars are attempting to align so everything is PERFECT before the cycle starts. If something is off, it's better to know about it before getting halfway through, so that when you do start the cycle you'll have the best chance of success.
Did they do an U/S? I'll bet she has a functional cyst that is producing E2, especially if she hasn't gotten her period yet. Maybe they can aspirated it to resolve it more quickly and you can get started soon.
Vent away...that's what we are here for.
No, it's not god or the universe or any cosmic energy trying to tell you not to have a child.
Your clinic has been a shit - all the way through. Have you checked their success rates on SART? Just curious where they rank.
It's not the donor that concerns me, it's their entire case management that raises enormous red flags with regard to the way they run the rest of their operation.
Riley, hold their hands to the fire. If you have doubts, don't cycle with them. Get a refund, save a few bucks and cycle somewhere else. I just don't want you to get screwed twice with these people. Their level of professionalism is non-existent. I cannot believe they blow you off, leave you hanging all weekend, don't have answers on your donor, wait for you to initiate questions and concerns. Argh! What are they doing for their fees?!
Hon, my heart goes out to you - truly! I'm triple-wishing things turn around significantly for you!
You want us to go rough 'em up for you? 'Cuz we'll do it. Just say the word. We'll beat them into submission with all our negative OPK and HPT sticks and scream at them, "NOW YOU OWE OUR FRIEND HERE A COUPLE DOZEN EMBRYOS. WE CAN DO THIS THE NICE WAY OR THE HARD WAY, BUT EITHER WAY WE NEED YOU TO DRINK THIS GALLON OF WATER AND WAIT HERE FOR FIVE HOURS WITH A MARCH 2004 ISSUE OF WOMAN'S DAY MAGAZINE. SEE HOW YOU LIKE IT."
I'm so sorry you're having such a bad experience, Riley. I hope things looks better tomorrow. ((Hugs))
Love,
Maddy
I have to say, I pretty much agree with Sky. Don't throw what's left of your money at a doomed cycle. If they've worked with this donor before, they should know how much estrogen to give her so that she reaches the correct E2 range. If her own inherent E2 is messed up (unmedicated) it sounds like a more serious issue. I really (REALLY) hate to even suggest this, but could the donor be pregnant?
I know you want this cycle to get going, but don't force it if all the indicators are shouting STOP. Make the clinic do their job and get everything right for you.
Sorry hon.
Post a Comment