Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Blah has Turned into Emotional Wreck

Ok - so I thought I was just feeling blah, but maybe I'm way more emotional right now than I've even admitting to myself. Case in point, I just had a "disagreement" with my graphic designer here at work. By the time I got off the phone with her after an increasingly frustrating conversation, I was in tears and had to close my office door so no one would see me crying. I composed myself and then went down to discuss the situation with my boss and to offer up a solution to help the work process run smoother in the future. However, as I was trying to explain the situation to him, I completely broke down in tears and starting crying in his office! I have never done that and I'm quite embarrassed. So, now he's thinking this issue with the graphic designer is much bigger and upsetting than it is. In fact, it's just a minor issue that can be easily fixed. Nothing worth crying over. Thankfully, I eventually regained my composure and explained that I wasn't crying over that, but for some reason I was just emotional today and then we went on to have a calm, productive conversation. Ugghhh...I feel like such an idiot and I feel like I've completely lost control of my emotions right now - I'm starting to cry again and I don't know why!

5 comments:

Sprogblogger said...

What you're going through is upsetting, and sometimes I think your brain tries to tell you it's no big deal at all...

So sorry you're having to deal with both the blahs & the emotion-crazies. Nothing fun about either state of being.

Thinking about you and hopinghopinghoping that this is the last cycle you have to deal with all this crap. Babies for everyone!

Eb said...

Man, you must be going through it. Hope you find some peace in your day
EB

Peeveme said...

Oh God. I can relate. Nothing worse than crying at work. It's the drugs. They make you not yourself. It wont be much longer.

katedaphne said...

Peeveme's right-- it isn't you, it's the Lupron. They don't call that the devil drug for nothing!

Hang in there. If the folks at work do not know you are cycling, it may be helpful to feign illness. Not necessarily call in sick, but just mention you're not feeling well and hope you can get back to feeling more like yourself soon. Hey, it's true -- you're NOT feeling well!

Hugs-- k

Shelli said...

oh my- how I can relate to your story. I had a similar meltdown earlier this month with my boss, and I totally blame the Lupron.

I'm sorry you are feeling out of sorts... but I do hope you feel better. ((hugs))