I'm bummed, but now I'm thinking my decision to transfer three was a good one. I just heard back from the embryologist. On the day of transfer we had 10 embryos that were still looking good and we transferred three, so that left seven. Out of that seven, only ONE made it to freeze. ONE. It's not looking good. I swear - why can't we ever get a break. So, basically, in two weeks if it turns out that this didn't work, it really is over. And in the meantime, everyone around me keeps getting pregnant. I just recently found out that the secretary for our department is pregnant, and since I'm one of the few women in our department, she has chosen me to confide in me and comes in my office daily telling me how nauseous she feels. Then yesterday, as I was laying around on my final day of bed rest, good friends called to tell us they are pregnant and then go on to say how they know it must be hard for us when people around us keep getting pregnant without even trying - yeah, thanks for rubbing it in.
I'm trying to be positive - I hope that one grade 4 embryo keeps chugging along. All we need is one - but it's looking more and more like the odds are against us once again.
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Good decision about transferring there..and I thought that even before I read the update about how only one made it to freeze.
I'm still feeling hopeful for you. I'll be checking back often to get updates. I always swing between "I'm totally pregnant", to "all is doomed" when in the 2ww. So you sound a lot more level headed that I am.
Hang in there sweetie. I still think you have a really great shot at this working.
I have my own personal chant going the last few weeks.... "this WILL work"... and I'll think of you too as well tonight. Who am I kidding? I won't be sleeping tonight, so I'll have plenty of time to send GOOD juju to both of us.
Sorry you're feeling less than great. I have everything crossed for you!!
I'm keeping everything crossed for you. None of mine made it to freeze :-(. I just keep telling myself that it only takes one, just one!
I'm thinking it's good the embies were put back on day 3, back where they are most at home. I'm hoping that it made all the difference for you and that at least your one little superstar will stick. Don't give up yet!
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling down (and that darn secretary and those fertile friends are not helping!). I know the grass is always greener, but I am in awe that you have 3 embryos in your belly right now...Keep breathing and be gentle with yourself - I am sending you and your embies lots of positive energy!!!!
The 2ww is insane; just try to keep busy! All you can do now is try to eat healthfully and not "overdo"; a happy attitude is great but if you can't swing that at least it doesn't make a difference in the implantation. Thinking of you and your three magic beans.
Hang in there. I'm thinking of you, rooting for you, feeling good for you on this one. Take care of yourself!
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