Thank you all so much for your words of encouragement and congratulations - you all mean the world to me! It is so nice having someone to share my news with. I don't know what I'd do without you all. So, once again, thank you! I'm hoping we can continue to celebrate and that in a few weeks you all won't be trying to console me.
I'm feeling positive with a huge side of caution. Like I said, I've never ever had even on perfect blast to transfer, much less two and right now there are two inside me. Oh, how I hope they are snuggling in and continuing to grow! Some of you have mentioned the great odds with perfect blasts and I spent some time with Dr. Google to confirm and the odds are up somewhere around 70-80 percent, depending on who you ask. Great odds, indeed! But we all know what it's like to be on the wrong side of the odds. That's why we are in this situation to begin with. So while I'm happy that things have gone well so far, I'm trying not to get too carried away. DH and I will find ourselves sitting around talking about our future child and making all sorts of plans and then one of us will quickly put a stop to it and say - well, I'm not getting my hopes up until we get that positive test. But even if we do get a positive, you all know that's only one of a thousand more hurdles we must cross before we have a live baby in our arms. It really is unfair that infertiles have to feel this way whereas fertiles just take everything for granted - they have sex, they get pregnant, they wait nine months and then a perfect baby is born. I'm fine taking the road I'm on, I just hope it has a happy ending.
The good or bad part is that we are going to be finding out for sure right before Christmas. My beta is scheduled for Christmas Eve. The only saving grace is that DH and I are spending Christmas Eve and Christmas Day on our own before heading to see relatives the day after Christmas. I hope we are able to have our own private wonderful celebration - our own Christmas miracle. If it's negative, I can't even imagine how that's going to impact the holidays ....don't want to go there now.
So, I guess for the rest of my wait, I'm going to take it easy, try to remain calm and relaxed and think positive thoughts. Fortunately, I've already finished most of my Christmas shopping, so I don't have to stress about that. I know it's too early now, but I just hope I start feeling "something" next week. In all my past failed cycles I felt absolutely nothing -and with good reason. The one and only time I had a positive test - back during my first chemical pregnancy - I knew I was pregnant days before I took the test. My boobs hurt and I just felt different - I knew. I want to have those feelings this time - and soon!
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"Positive with a huge side of caution" - I like that! And I, too, hope you're feeling awfully darned pregnant soon. Very soon!
Eeeek! I am so excited for you and this gives me so much hope. Please just know that you, your husband, and your wonderful two blasts are in my prayers. I hope you and your husband get that Christmas miracle!!!
I hear ya. We are a few days behind but we get the same 'what if' conversations going only to panic and turn around three time, spit on the floor and stand on one leg!
Glad you are taking it easy. Very important.
Good luck. With you every step of the way
Eb
you will be in my christmas wishes!!! I hope you get exactly what you hope for on christmas day.....
Its such a fine line between "thinking positive" and getting carried away, but the odds ARE on your side this time....so I will think positive with you :)
Hoping this is it for you. Think calm and serene thoughts, listen to your favorite Christmas music and chill out for the next couple weeks!
Fingers crossed.
You sound wonderful. Staying optimistic is so important. I'm praying you get your Christmas miracle! Don't look too hard for symptoms before your beta. Remember every pregnancy is different and you'll find lots of posts about successful BFPs in the absence of any symptoms (including me). Good luck!
Good luck! Hopefully we both get our bfp!
Awe, it's hard this two week wait, it's a killer actually.
Can I make a suggestion? Wait until Boxing day to test....then your spirits will still be up at Christmas, yes you're left wondering but also hoping and dreaming too. And really what's a day?
I go for my transfer on Tuesday and I don't plan to tell my Intended Parents till after xmas, I just think they deserve a happy holiday and though a positive would make xmas absolutely wonderful, a negative would just ruin it.
Think about it, and good luck in the 2week wait.
Have you heard about pineapple? Somewhere I read that an enzyme in pineapple helps with implantation. This could be a cruel joke by an RE to see how much crazy stuff he/she could suggest and get us to do. It can't hurt though and pineapple tastes good! Best of luck -- I hope that this is your most blessed Christmas ever!
I really hope that that the holiday madness can distract you some from the horrible tww. And I hope that you start feeling VERY different soon, soon, soon!
~Brenda
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